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Name: Allie
Gender: Female
Interests: I love Jesus! He's my hero! :) I love to act! speech&&drama rox! I love writing!--I love to read!!--I love dogs!! I love Disney Channel!! (yes I'm a disney freak) I love spending time with frenns! They are the coolest! Love you Karen! Maegan! Amber! Scottie!Kristal! :)
Expertise: Speech&&Drama, writing, and Suite Life..lol.. I love Jesus! :)
Occupation: Student
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Member Since:
8/28/2006
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| Hey-Yo!
Wow!
So Friday I returned from an intense but AMAZING week of Super Summer.
I learned so much and had tons of fun! I had a great family, a great school, great room-mates, and just a great week! God blessed me with so much!
I wanted to use this note to kind of relay all of what I had learned, but as they described it--it was almost like they put a fire hose to my mouth and just let it go. So much information and so little time. I know I will be chewing on all of the things that I learned for the rest of the summer. Afshin, our amazing speaker, gave me enough to think about for a whole year! haha.
This was my first year at Super Summer and nothing could have prepared me for such an amazing week, but as they pointed out, the reason it was so amazing was because I was in the Word of God EVERY single day and experiencing Him and talking about Him ALL the time. There wasn't a time where I wasn't in His presence. That's why I was having such an indescribable time. I was never thinking of myself and as I've been told this doesn't have to stop at Super Summer. Now I don't want to stop reading His word or talking with Him about my day.
Afshin Ziafat (which by the way I had been told before I went that Afshin was AWESOME, but I don't think AWESOME begins to describe it. He is a great speaker and I loved listening to him!) the first few days explained about contentment and discontentment.
I have to be content where I am at physically, but I have to be discontent where I am at spritually.
I should be happy with what God has given me, where He has put me, and content by knowing that it's not about me, but about others. If I'm not happy at this stage, then I'm not going to be happy at the next stage. God sometimes gives us what we wanted, just to show us that it's not what we wanted. I'm so thankful that God has saved me many times from that. I remember wanting to be in this musical SO bad, but I didn't have time to audition, and I was kind of mad that I didn't get the chance to be in it, and then God actually made all these things happen and had me go to one of the practices just to help out a little bit, and it was complete chaos and I was so thankful that I was NOT in it. It was a wonderful musical, but I was glad God had saved me from some stress. Also if I'm not content and I'm complaining all the time, then why in the world would anyone want to listen to me talk about my God. I would hate to think that people looked at me and thought, "She's not happy, why should I even listen to her talk about her faith." And if I keep saying I'm not happy until I get whatever, then I'm telling God, "You are not enough. I need THAT--plus YOU"....and that doesn't work. God desires contentment and in 1 Timohty 6:6 it states that godliness with contentment is great gain....and then Afshin threw something at me completely the other way. He said we needed to be DISCONTENT.
I needed Godly Discontentment.
I had become complacent with my walk with God and that shouldn't even be in the same sentence.
I decided that I was okay without moving forward in my walk with God, and I'm so glad that God used Super Summer as an alarm clock and woke me up. I have to pursue Him. I can't just sit and tell Him, "Okay well I'll take a few steps tomorrow and learn and talk with You then." I have to PURSUE Him, run after Him, follow Him, and go after Him with the CORE of my heart---and not do it for show. I'm not raising my hands in worship or reading my Bible to make me look good. God knows my heart and its desires and He's going to know if I'm doing it for real. I need to be discontent--and be nourished in His word, and know His word, and then put it into practice.
So when I am discontent and just wanting more and more of God and spending TONS of time with Him, then that's when He's going to work on my heart. My heart is so important because if I don't protect it then other things that are not of God will come in and take my heart and make me complacent in my walk with God again. Afshin gave a wonderful example of godly discontment about a boy named BJ Higgins. How could someone who lived only for 15 years leave such a HUGE footprint for God in this world? BJ Higgins took his relationship with God and truly lived for Him. After a six-week battle with an infection contracted on the mission field, BJ's earthly life was over--he was only 15 years old. On his death bed, BJ was still preaching to his nurse. He was still trying to lead others to life as he was "dying." He had a drive for God, that I pray I someday will have and am working toward NOW. He went after God with the CORE of his heart and his story has changed lives. You can read more about his story in the book, "I would die for you."
God also showed me the power of prayer. One of my Super Summer sisters, Allie (*yes, I thought it was neat too!*) brought the story of Jocelyn Windsor. Jocelyn is a 17 month old little girl with a major heart defect, and was in need of a heart and during the week of Super Summer she received that heart. A couple of days before we had all prayed for her and to see God provide a heart was amazing and then Thursday night the whole Super Summer camp prayed for Jocelyn and for the surgery to go well. The WHOLE SUPER SUMMMER CAMP joined hands and prayed. That's hundreds and hundreds of students. Jocelyn's surgery went well, and as far as I know, she is doing fine. I am sure that Jocelyn's family would appreciate everyone to continue to pray for Jocelyn and themselves as they continue on this journey God is directing them on. I am in awe and thankful that God had Allie in my family who was/is so close to the family of Jocelyn so that I was able to see this wonderful story of the power of prayer. In fact on the note, I was thankful for EVERYONE in my family. They were all so great and I learned so much from all of them! Thank you guys for showing me so much and even if I didn't share much, you all made a special footprint on my heart! =)
There was so much more.
I learned so much more.
Super Summer was a great week.
God has already been testing me on some of the things I have learned--and it's only been a couple of days since I have returned! CrAzY!
haha
God is good.
Well I must go.
Thank you for reading.
God Bless.
Allie.<3
This is an amazing song that you should really go listen to! It is Britt Nicole's "The Lost Get Found"
Here are the wonderful lyrics:
Hello my friend
I remember when you were
So alive with your wide eyes
Then the light that you had in your heart was stolen
Now you say that it ain't worth stayin'
You wanna run but you're hesitatin'
I'm talkin' to me
Don't let your lights go down
Don't let your fire burn out
'Cause somewhere, somebody needs a reason to believe
Why don't you rise up now?
Don't be afraid to stand out
That's how the lost get found
The lost get found
So when you get the chance
Are you gonna take it?
There's a really big world at your fingertips
And you know you have the chance to change it
There's a girl on the streets, she's cryin'
There's a man whose faith is dyin'
Love is calling you
Don't let your lights go down
Don't let your fire burn out
'Cause somewhere, somebody needs a reason to believe
Why don't you rise up now?
Don't be afraid to stand out
That's how the lost get found
The lost get found
Why do we go with the flow
Or take an easier road?
Why are we playin' it safe?
Love came to show us the way
Love is a chance we should take
I'm movin' out of the way
Don't let your lights go down
Don't let your fire burn out
'Cause somewhere, somebody needs a reason to believe
(Stand out)
Don't let your lights go down
Don't let your fire burn out
(Stand out)
'Cause somewhere, somebody needs a reason to believe
Why don't you rise up now?
Don't be afraid to stand out
That's how the lost get found
The lost get found
So when you get the chance
Are you gonna take it?
There's a really big world at your fingertips
And you know you have the chance to change it
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|  Well hello! Summer has been going pretty well. It seems to be going by really fast!!
I leave for Super Summer a week from today. Is tht not absolutely crazy? I'm really excited! I've heard such amazing things about it. How it's just such a big God experience and just... idk. A full 5 days of nothing but studying God and his word. I mean my best friend read me off the schedule from last year and I'm telling you it is like INTENSE!!!
but so amazing.  *I love that poem* But anyways....=] I'm watching Shakespeare in Love on FX. *sigh* It's so sweet. I've seen it before..but i like the FX version better b/c they leave out the parts that make it rated "R." lol I just love the story--it's so much better than the play. I just never really enjoyed the play. I mean it's just not realistic. After 5 days they are willing to die for one another. I just....I'm sorry that's not love...that's lust. I think it can be argued that it's not a love story, but a story about impatience. I mean they just couldn't wait. I mean if Romeo had just chilled out man and not killed himself the minute he learned Juliet was "dead" then things could have worked out. *sigh* I'm having trouble writing, becuase I'm distracted by the movie. It's so amazing<3 
So yesterday was Sunday so I got to see Tall, Dark, & Handsome. =] You know something I haven't mentioned is that a lot of other girls like him a lot. And I'm just not a girl who competes for attention...and last night I even tried to remove myself from the competition by just like leaving him alone and even tho I'm not even in the competition I still won his attention. and...I wasn't even tht excited about it. idk...I like him...I do...i just Like, I went to go help the church paint this building for the Hispanic mission and Tall, Dark, and Handsome was there and this girl from our other mission thing and she was following him around like a puppy and so I just left it alone and then he just comes up and talks to me w/out acknowledging her and it makes me feel bad because I don't like leaving ppl out. Then the girls asks me, "Are you homeschooled?" "and i'm no" and she's like "it just seems like ya'll are really close" and i'm like "uhh" becuz tall, dark, and handsome's mom is standing there. Then even more awkward he finds this card on the ground that has my name on it and he comes up to me with it behind his back and he's like I got something for you and then hands me the card and i'm like aww how sweet and then his mom comes up and he goes, "i mean i just found it on the ground and it had your name on it" and i'm like thanks. and like the rest of the night he comes up to me and just talks to me and doesn't acknowledge the ppl that I'm with --which just makes me feel weird. and his mom is like observing like a hawk which makes me feel really awkward and I laugh because of all the conversations we have....becuase God has a sense of humor, I'm sure of that for he woudl not write me such a comedic love story, if he didn't...and how and then there's these really sweet moments where he's just so nice and sweet and the way he leans in to talk to me is the most amazing thing ever. and i can't even begin to describe why i get angry when he invades my bubble, becuz in reality i kind of like it, but I don't enjoy ppl in my bubble....and gr. Idk. It just... I'm really happy. God's really giving me a gift, I'm seeing him like twice as much as i did in the school year and that's really been good for our friendship, but..... I don't enjoy his mom watching every second becuz i knw it makes him feel awkward---and idk. It's just intresting what this Summer holds..... "This is not life, Will. It is a stolen season." I hope all are well! :) God bless. Allie=] "It's not a comedy I'm writing now....." | | |
| Hey Guys!
Guess what time it is??
:) SUMMER-TIME! :)
I'm very glad that it's Summer and what-not.
lol.
You know usually by the end of the year, I am so ready for school to be out.
I'm so ready for an ENDING.
But this year I don't feel like their was any ending...just beginnings.
So much has happened since I last blogged.
It's not even funny.
I guess first I went to State Speech! Who-hoo!
lol
I placed in my SO and I went in my Prose.
It was surprisingly tons of fun...even though it didn't go how I wanted it to go.
But....as I'm learning God usually has a better plan.
and He did.
I got invited to the Homeschool Formal.
*Not by Tall, Dark, and Handsome*
They are not allowed to take "dates"
but my best friend Karen took me and I'll talk more about that later.
hehe.
Maegan quit Speech&Drama.
If you don't remember her, she was my HD partner
and yeah.
but surprisingly I'm okay.
That was her choice.
And even more surprising I see God working even in this sad situation.
Wow..i guess it wasn't that much...
it just felt like a lot.
...so I'll talk more about this whole Spring Formal thing...
haha.
I had so much fun!
God was so gracious.
I loved my dress
I had fun dancing
I just had a BLAST!
Tall, Dark, and Handsome didn't even dance.
Yeah.
But that's okay cuz i went and sat next to him and we talked.
A lot.
and it was so much fun
I just...
it was..
amazing.
So like things with Tall, Dark, and Handsome have actually been going well.
It's crazy how much things have happened with him since I last blogged.
It's like we are really getting closer and I just really see God working in this.
Idk..and the beautiful part is....
I'm actually okay with whatever happens with Tall, Dark, and Handsome.
Like, I've really sat down and thought okay so he can't date and even by the end of all of this he might not want to date me when he can.
and I'm so excited because God has given me that peace...and I'm just so thankful that God has given me all of these opportunities to talk to him and to get to know him and just what God is doing.
I think what is probably so awesome about it all, is I'm seeing when I really put all of myself into God, He really takes control and even tho sometimes it's not easy, like seeing Maegan and Amber quit----in the end, He has such a better plan.
and you see it's not the end.
It's just the beginning.
I mean I have the whole summer to await me.
and all of these beautiful and fun times in Speech even without my original crew.
You know my Sophomore Year was hard.
It definitely was not as good as Freshmen....but I'm refuse to say that I hated it becuase I'm sad to see it go.
Because this year was such a year of building.
God has strengthened me and brought me closer to Him.
This year was probably the hardest.
Nancy died, Dakota's dad died---which now I've learned Dakota will be serving time in jail, having to let go of my friend Scottie, watching my friends make really bad decisions, and having to deal with those decisions, and watching my friends quit Speech.
But the thing is God drew me closer to Him when Nancy died and closer to Karen which has been amazing.
Letting go of Scottie had to be the best thing in the world, because now we have started talking a little and more and she has grown-up so much and I'm so glad.
The point is, I really learned this year that even on my worse days---God has good things in store for me.
I refuse to say that Sophomore year was bad.
It was just God preparing me for whatever He needs me to do.
and that has to be the best.
Right?
Sophomore Year was being broken.
I am broken.
There is this amazing song which has to be my fave rite now.
"Sweetly Broken" by Jeremy Riddle.
It's amazing and i'm going to give you the lyrics.
haha
Sweetly Broken
Jeremy Riddle
To the cross I look, to the cross I cling
Of its suffering I do drink
Of its work I do sing
For on it my Savior both bruised and crushed
Showed that God is love
And God is just
Chorus:
At the cross You beckon me
You draw me gently to my knees, and I am
Lost for words,
so lost in love,
I’m sweetly broken, wholly surrendered
What a priceless gift, undeserved life
Have I been given
Through Christ crucified
You’ve called me out of death
You’ve called me into life
And I was under Your wrath
Now through the cross I’m reconciled
Chorus:
In awe of the cross I must confess
How wondrous Your redeeming love and
How great is Your faithfulness
At the cross You beckon me
You draw me gently to my knees, and I am
Lost for words,
so lost in love,
I’m sweetly broken, wholly surrendered
So, this is not the end.
Just the beginning.
Happy Summer.
God Bless.
Allie :)
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| "He is jealous for me
Love's like a hurricane, I am a tree
Bending beneath the weight of His wind and mercy"
I had the most wonderful encounter with God yesterday.
It was that kind of Spiritual Emotional High you get
You just don't want to come down.
To start off worship we began with "All Because of Jesus"
That song is an amazing worship song.
You just want to praise Him and jump around and have a good time.
And that's what we did.
We jumped and praised and gave Him all we have as we belted out the song.
Then we sang "All I need is You."
Now I don't know about you, but it just makes me fall on my knees to remember that all I need is Jesus Christ.
And then all of sudden, as I'm praising God....
I feel Him in the room.
"When all of a sudden, I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by Your gloryand I realize how beautiful You are and how great your affections are for me."Knowing He's there with You just makes you wanna scream louder and louder until you just can't shout anymore.
God was there!
Then we slow things down and watch a video.
This video had scenes from Passion of the Christ along with the song
"My Hero."
I bawled. So did the person next to me. So did the entire room.
My heart broke.
I got shivers up my spine.
I had the hairs on my arms stand up.
Here was my Savior being spit upon, whipped at, and laughed at.
All for me.
and you.
It is said that after all the beating, you could barely tell that Jesus was even a person.
And goodness! Those Romans knew torture didn't they?
The cross was death in a nutshell, my gosh!
People who were put on the cross drowned in their own blood.
It physically hurt to watch this along with that song.
I watched my Savior try to carry the cross while the song says
"There goes my Hero
Watch Him as He goes."
I broke down because every punch and every kick and every nail was because of my sin.
Oh.
How He loves us so.
The minute after the video we all broke into the song "Oh How He Loves Us."
My Hero Loves me.
So we are His portion and He is our prize, Drawn to redemption by the grace in His eyes If grace is an ocean we're all sinking
Oh How He Loves us so.
Tomorrow is Good Friday.
Tomorrow is the day that my Christ died for me.
There Goes My Hero.
I hope all have a wonderful Easter.
God Bless.
Allie
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| I don't want to go through the motions. I don't want to be the type of Christian that does everything right, but doesn't have a relationship with her Heavenly Father. I don't want to be the type of Christian who doesn't go to the bad parties or doesn't have sex before marriage or whatever and doesn't sit down and actually read her Bible. And when I say read, I mean meditate. Meditation means "to think deeply and continously about something." I'll be honest sometimes I just read it. Glaze over it. Sure I read it, but did I really understand it? Did I really meditate on those words?
You can have Scripture in your mind, but not in your heart. Just like you can know Jesus, and know all that he has done for you and go to church and do all the right things, and not have a personal relationship with God. When you have the scripture in your mind then you know the concepts of God, but when you have it in your mind AND heart then you have known Jesus personally. I don't want to be just another Christian who just goes to church. WHo just reads her Bible. I don't want to do all the "right" things, and not know Him personally and have a relationship with Him. Christianity isn't a belief system--it's meeting and having a relationship with God. Tenth Avenue North (Mike specifically) has an amazing blog that talks more about this. I'd advise you to go read it. I love you all. God bless. Allie | | |
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